Tuesday, December 16, 2008


Did anyone watch the Kona Ironman on TV this past week? Well, I finally got to watch it last night and I had a whole bunch of emotions arise. Excitement, fear, curiosity, admiration....a wide spectrum of emotion and then I got to thinkin...can I actually do that? Many of the athletes talked about how our bodies are just not made for that long a race so who am I to think that I can actually pull this off? And why the self doubt all of a sudden? I read an article lately about exercise and the writer said, "People don't exercise because they like it. They exercise for the results." Some days I agree, some I don't . What I want to know is where does the self discipline come from? What gets a person up and active when part of them says to stay home and get other things done? How does that part get exercised?

What makes a person keep running when their mind says to stop and take a rest? How does that happen?? What is it? Are we born athletic or nurtured into being athletes?

I'm truly scared after watching Kona. Now, I do realize they featured the elite athletes. I don't doubt I'll feel pain, and stomach upset and the cramps but what I fear the most is the part of my brain that says it's okay not to finish because I tried my best. I have a fairly strong will but we all have a breaking point. I worry a lot about being alone out there on that bike with just my thoughts. That's when trouble comes so I really need to focus a lot of my training on my internal dialog. I just don't know how long I'll be able to yield off the yucky stuff.

1 comment:

Clint, Marianne and Sage said...

Alright. The quote about people not exercising b/c they like it but b/ of results....I disagree. It's easy for me to say that though, b/c I LOVE to exercise. I love to push myself, love to sweat, love to feel the soreness that makes it hard to walk. Love love love it all. Plus, I've looked pretty much exactly the same for the past 10 years and no matter how hard I work out I can't get the body I want. You're right though, that is a long friggin race you have to think about and it's going to take a whole lot of will power and determination to get through it. You'll do it. I have no doubt.