Did anyone watch the Kona Ironman on TV this past week? Well, I finally got to watch it last night and I had a whole bunch of emotions arise. Excitement, fear, curiosity, admiration....a wide spectrum of emotion and then I got to thinkin...can I actually do that? Many of the athletes talked about how our bodies are just not made for that long a race so who am I to think that I can actually pull this off? And why the self doubt all of a sudden? I read an article lately about exercise and the writer said, "People don't exercise because they like it. They exercise for the results." Some days I agree, some I don't . What I want to know is where does the self discipline come from? What gets a person up and active when part of them says to stay home and get other things done? How does that part get exercised?
What makes a person keep running when their mind says to stop and take a rest? How does that happen?? What is it? Are we born athletic or nurtured into being athletes?
I'm truly scared after watching Kona. Now, I do realize they featured the elite athletes. I don't doubt I'll feel pain, and stomach upset and the cramps but what I fear the most is the part of my brain that says it's okay not to finish because I tried my best. I have a fairly strong will but we all have a breaking point. I worry a lot about being alone out there on that bike with just my thoughts. That's when trouble comes so I really need to focus a lot of my training on my internal dialog. I just don't know how long I'll be able to yield off the yucky stuff.